Selasa, 15 Mei 2012

Old CD Case


The first time I heard “Spend Another Night” by Billy Gilman, I was drown to the moment when we were lying on the ground of the hill and starring at the sun. It was breezing morning and you put your arm around me, holding me tight.
You gazed at the sky with smile on your face when you spoke softly, “This is a beautiful morning.”
“It is,” I agreed. I heard music was playing in my head. I moved closer to you as the wind was getting colder.
I looked up and saw your face. In that time, I realized that I distinctly knew that you and I were meant to be together.
Now I was sitting in a cafe with my sandwich untouched. The seat in front of me was empty. I was alright.
I said nothing. The waiters wandered around with apron on and tray in their hands. I was looking at the people outside. They were walking fast on the side walk, some went in to the Victoria’s Secret some went out of McDonald. They all looked the same, Armani mantels, Gucci bags, and all stuff.
“Are you waiting for someone, Anna?”
I turned my attention and saw a cute black hair waiter stopped by me. His tray was full of dirty plates and glasses. But his smile was beaming as usual.
“Not really,” I replied, smiled back at him sincerely. “Just a friend of mine is coming late. Want to join me?”
“Is that okay?” he looked hesitated.
“Sure, I don’t think he’s coming anyway,”
“Alright then,” he smiled a lot wider and looked happier than before. “I’ll be right back,” he added, nodding at his full tray.
He came back again without his tray and apron then sat in front of me. He looked better that way.
“Don’t you want to order something for yourself?”
“No, thank you. It’d be weird anyway ordering something from your own workmates,”
I laughed. “You’re right, emm... Nemeth?” I read his name tag on his black uniform.
“You came here very often,”
“Yeah, I work near here. Just across the street,” I said, started eating my sandwich.
“Ah, I see,” he said, looking at me with his cute smile and sticky eyes.
“What about you?”
“Well, it’s just my part time job while I am taking business major here,” he shruged.
“Wow, that’s great,” I said.
Then our conversation went along till he asked me, “So are you free this weekend?”
My eyes went wide. But I smiled and ready to say yes when the bell door rang and someone came in. That man appearance was contrast with the people around. His mantel looked messy as well as his brown hair.
“Hey! There you are!” that man walked fast toward me. I gave him my little smile as best as I can.  “I’m sorry I’m late. The traffic was so crowded.”
“Yeah, I know. I already guessed,” I said calmly. I just took a deep breath.
“Oh, well, your friend is already here. So I better back to work,” Nemeth stood up and gave me his quick smile before left us alone.
Then that man sat on his seat.
“Well, I am not going to take it too long, Morgan,” I said, searching for something in my bag. “I think you need to have it back,” I pushed an old case of CD toward him.
“What is it?”
I didn’t answer and just looked at him opening up the case. He looked like he forgot about it at first, but then his face shown surprise. He looked up at me in confuse.
“What do you mean with this?”
“I mean, four years is not a short time, Morgan. You had fun in your own world. But now I have my own world. And my own life. So I’m done.”
I just stood up and left my past behind. At least now I could smile full-heartedly as I walked out of the cafe with another smile following me.

T.G.I.F


TGIF! Thank God It’s Friday!
Finally, weekend was coming and we’re ready to rock! Yeaah!
“Let’s get out of this school!” screamed one of my friends after the final bel rang. All the students replied with the same athusiasism.
We all grabbed our things, books, pencils, to our bags. We ran out of our class then went to our cars. Me and my class mates had a plan to go the beach for this weekend, so there we went!
I sat in the back seat, right between my two best friends, Luna and Paul.
“Give me some space, Lucy,” Paul said. I really needed to accept the fact that his big body really needed big space. Haha!
“Okay, okay,” I chuckled.
“Maybe you should bring your own seat, Paul, so you won’t need ours,”
Me and Luna bursted to laugh. Paul just looked at us with squinted eyes.
“Ready to have fun, guys?” said Roman in the driving seat.
“Yep,”
“Let’s go!”
“Let’s beat that Blues!”
“Paul!” we all yelled.
“We’re not going to watch a football match,” Luna added. “Beach, okay, beach?”
We all laughed when we saw Luna tapped his head. Paul’s expression made it looked funnier. He always made us laugh with his ugly face. Haha!
Then we drove to the beach with about four more cars of our class mates. After we arrived, we separated into some groups. Some who played in the water and swam and some who chosen to hike the hill.
Me and my best friends hiked the hill with some other friends. We chatted along the way when the others were busy commenting on the how beautiful the sight seeing was.
“Hey, how’s you and Derek?” Paul asked Luna. Couldn’t believe he picked up this sensitive conversation anyway.
“We’re good,” Luna answered. “We promised to still be friends.”
“Oh, alright,”
I didn’t know why, but I was sure Paul was smiling. I elbowed his rib, forced him to change the conversation.
“Okay, so... anyone thirsty already?”
“Pauuuul!” I rolled my eyes and Luna chuckled. He really couldn’t spend a day without made us laugh. At least smile.
On the peak of the hill, we just lied on the grass and enjoyed the sun set. This was always be our favorite. Sun set. The moment when always shared our stories.
“So, how’s your university future, Paul?” I asked him, still looking at the sky.
“Well, not pretty good,” he replied. “Last week my dad need the money to fix the house’s roof anyway, so I think I need to work after high school before I can go to Uni. Well, my money always run to my family’s need these days. What about yours?”
“Me? You know nothing I need to worry about my Uni. But you know my family very well, they don’t even ask where I really want to go or which major really I want to take,” I explained in exaggerating way, made my two best friends chuckled. “So I always look like talking to a brick wall anyway. No point of it.”
“What about you, Luna?” asked Paul.
“Well, Uni? Checked. Family approvement? Check. Boyfriend? No checked. So I need a real boyfriend in Uni. Like very very veryyyyy soon,”
We chuckled listening to her explanation. Oh, well, we laughed actually!
“Maybe the ‘perfect boyfriend’ you’re looking for is just right in front of you. You just never notice him—Aw!” suddenly I felt my rib’s elbowed. I turned to Paul and looked at him, complaining.
“Shhh!” he fizzed, reminded me not to say anything. But I just grinned and winked.
“Okay, who’s you’re talking about?” asked Luna curiously.
“No one. No one. Lucy was just joking, right? Haha,” he laughed awkwardly in a way to convince her. He elbowed my rib again, tried to get some helps. But I just didn’t say anything.
That’s the way we spent our first day. The next day we decided to stay on the beach. We swam, played on the water or just built a sand castle. Sometimes, it was so childish but we had fun. That’s the most important thing.
And then we went back to our boarding school on Sunday afternoon with clothes were wet and full of sands! Haha. But we’re happy! Ready to face the Boring Monday as usual!

One Room, Two Lives


I was sitting in the living room, watching TV, changing the channel all the time. Honestly, I didn’t know what I really wanted to see. Nothing was interesting anyway. It’s so boring.
I looked around and saw my mom wandering around, doing her work with one hand holding a cell phone and another one holding a pen. She talked very seriously with her client. Ah, my mom, as always, I thought.
In another part of the room, my dad was sitting on the couch, holding a bottle of bear. It’s still in the morning, but he was already drunk. Oh, God!
My brother’s coming down stair, I could hear his footsteps. He appeared in the living room with his messy hair and his night shirt.
“Did you see my wallet?”
“How on earth you’re asking your wallet when you just wake up?” I replied in disbelief, looking at him from up to down.
“Well, I need to order some pizza. I am hungry,”
“Oh, well, waking up and the first thing you thought is pizza. Oh, a perfect brother,” I mumbled. “Maybe you forget flushing it in the toilet,” I added, half-jokingly.
“Oh, right? Maybe I forgot throwing it away to the trash,” he replied, sarcastically. “Mom! Did you see my wallet?” he turned to her, disturbing her daily business activity.
“Oh, honey, you should know where you put your own wallet,” she replied, hang on the phone for a while but then put her attention back again to her client.
“Oh, great,” my bro said, then he came back up stair again and made disturbing noise when he’s searching his wallet. Well, I bet so.
Ignoring all this messy room, I came back looking at my TV, which was now airing morning news. It showed a poor condition of a village in which country I didn’t really know. They were really poor and starving, only lived in a house which made from cardboard boxes and the environment was very dirty.
Oh God, at least I could still live normally today. No matter how weird my family was, with a drunken dad, a super-busy mom, and an ignorant brother, at least I was more fortunate than the people in the TV. Oh, well.
I stood up and walked toward the window. I opened the curtain and let the warm sun light creeping in. I saw the green garden of mine. It’s still wet after the rain last night, but now it looked beautiful, reflecting the sun light.
I turned my attention to my neighbor. A family who was ready to have a vacation. They brought surfing boards, food boxes, swimming suits, etc. They were going to go to the beach, I thought. They laughed all the way to their car in the driveway, putting all their stuff in the baggage. I smiled looking at them, looking at their happiness.
I knew I didn’t have a family like them, but at least I have a family. I couldn’t imagine if I were homeless like the people on the TV. I was already fortunate with what I had, so no complain!
I just couldn’t wait for the holiday to end so I could come back to my other family which was called friends! And to come back to my other home which was called boarding school!

Rabu, 18 April 2012

Mythology

Well, I am always interested on something mythical. Let's say an elf, Loch Ness, Big Foot, etc. I don't know why but the less real something is the more interesting it is for me.

I tried to find a book or anything about mythology around the world but it was difficult for me. So I was kind of giving up years ago. But then, I found this book several days ago. In a book store. That I didn't expect. Yep, finally I got what I had been looking for! Yay! Yay! :D

So thank you for "that book store" that helped me to find what I had been looking for :)

Minggu, 15 April 2012

Love and Be Loved

What would you do when you're not around?
when you want to be there
when you need to be there
but you can't

I am okay with that
to be here all alone
cause I am waiting for you
no matter how long it will take

you see, I am patient
and I am faithful
to be the one who always belive in you
trust you and... love you

This is it,
the proof of what I really feel
I am committed to be with you
because this is what I am doing best...

Loving you
and being loved back by you...

Tired

I am tired. I just wanna take a rest for a little while.

This things make me confused and I am not ready for it. Not yet. Well, I think I need to take a breath, fresh my brain, fresh my heart and decide calmly and wisely what should I do next. This is not the best thing out of me. I have something more to show and I need to know and to be sure how I should do that.

When I am ready for it, I will. And I know my heart will tell me the best. So I don't need to worry about it because now I have my time for my self to enjoy what's happening :)

Sabtu, 14 April 2012

My Thank You to One Direction

One Direction is a band. 

But it's just not just a band for me.

This band gives me some luck since October 2012. I earn some money from selling 1D's (stands for One Direction) stuff, from books to CD's. Well, I like this band also that's why I had an idea to spread my selling bussiness to fan-girling thing. But I never thought it would give me this huge income. Okay, actually not very huge, but at least I can feeding my self. Haha

So yeah, I think I need to say a big thank you to One Direction for it. Hope they're getting bigger and bigger. And also success! Love.